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2020-06-07 | Journal | First Week & Jalapeños

The work week started with peeing in a bottle, and ended with me providing the requirements for storage and compute that I gathered with Vym mind mapping software and automatically generated with Cruft Buster. This method is so much easier than what I've had to do in the past. On the one hand, I still struggle with the lack of interest or understanding of these ideas. On the other hand, well, somebody is paying me to do it... at least for three months.

I get angry about the lack of interest and understanding sometimes. I know many people where this would help them in their jobs, but they can't break out of their current way of doing things. I am aware that it is quite likely the anger comes from my own insecurity. It is anger that it is my own problem because I can't communicate well - mirror-like wisdom - but, that doesn't seem to help much. Sean tells me to let it go, but it is difficult.

I have a mish-mash of reactions to the general insanity of how we are reacting to crises culturally, and the inability of most people to learn something new., and I can't seem to navigate it well. I am slowly figuring out how to move on from this, but it is difficult. I need to be a mountain climber. Sean is right. I need to let it go, and turn that anger from shiny metallic purple armor to white light of future effort as I fix chinks in the web. I need to surf alone. Above all, though, I have enough metaphors.

Sean and I voyaged to Rainbow Cafe in Auburn yesterday, which opened for the first time in months. We talked to the owner a bit. He graduated from Auburn High years before Sean. He talked about how they had to toss all of their beer and other perishables, and when they opened back up they had only a day's notice. Usually I get a pint of Space Dust there, which they have on tap, but not this time. The staff shuffled around in the back room a bit and came out with an Elysian Men's Room, which was dated as best by June, 2019, and it did taste a little off, but it was good enough to order another. The waiter convinced me to try his favorite version of a Reuben which included mushrooms and jalapeños. I enjoyed it, but it pushed it into another type of sandwich.


2020-06-07 :

I found the manifesto I talked about in this entry and posted it. I feel that I'm in a similar state of mind. I forgot I had posted a picture of me playing chess with my Grandpa.

mcj auburn_high mountain_climbing grandpa sean

Articles tagged with mcj on Aggie Codrust:

2020-04-17: MCJ Tomoe
2020-02-01: MCJ Yaaahhhss
2020-01-03: Mad Men
2019-10-27: Too Complicated?
2019-09-07: Intro Wander
2019-09-02: Labor Day
2019-08-31: Sojourn

Articles tagged with mcj on O.R.N.G.:

2019-07-20: Roll On
2019-07-13: New CMS
2019-04-15: Malignant Punishment
2018-06-16: Are Images Like Bigsite?
2018-05-09: Puzzling Glimpses
2017-06-23: Lingering in the Stairwell
2017-06-08: Blank Page
2016-11-28: Starting Overish
2011-05-21: Wireless MCJ
2011-01-17: Trouble in Mind
2010-12-19: New Release: MCJ 2.7.5
2010-08-06: Id Climb
2010-06-11: Future Share
2010-05-15: VMware Running
2009-07-10: Metaphors in the Open
2006-04-30: MCJ Push
1985-11-13: The Dark Age

Articles tagged with auburn_high on O.R.N.G.:

1991-09-22: Putting the Homebrew Away
1979-10-13: The Beatles and the Annex
1979-03-23: Drivers Ed and Steve Martin

Articles tagged with mountain_climbing on Luv Counter XYZ:

2020-10-24: Base Camp
2020-09-23: Climbing

Articles tagged with mountain_climbing on O.R.N.G.:

2019-05-18: But an Instant
2018-11-10: Interim Sun
2018-10-15: The Old Mountain Climbing Metaphor
2018-06-24: DataOps
2017-08-31: Wumblebright Wagon
2014-09-22: Divine Web
2013-05-09: The Pursuit of The Good
2010-06-06: MCJ Books
2010-06-05: Interesting Climbing Reference
2010-05-24: Jacob's Ladder and Hacking the Circuitry
2008-05-28: Mountain Climbing Metaphor - May Revisit
1986-09-30: Mountain Climbing Metaphor - Climbing
1986-06-18: World Peace Flier

Articles tagged with grandpa on Aggie Codrust:

2020-04-11: Grandpa Waves
2019-09-09: Elton John Again

Articles tagged with grandpa on O.R.N.G.:

2018-07-27: Toy Rambler
2018-05-28: Ramen
2017-11-29: so_what
2016-10-11: Back pack
2016-07-29: Boat
2014-07-30: Not as strong
2013-03-21: You are Not OK
2013-03-13: Rebuilding Grandpa's Chainsaw - Revisit
2011-11-01: Rebuilding Grandpa's Chainsaw - Part 4
2011-10-31: Rebuilding Grandpa's Chainsaw - Part 3
2011-10-30: Rebuilding Grandpa's Chainsaw - Part 2
2011-10-29: Rebuilding Grandpa's Chainsaw - Part 1
2010-12-30: 2011
2008-05-31: MCJ Road Trip
2007-05-16: Nana's Funeral
2002-08-09: 8048 Puzzle Box
1993-02-05: Letter to Grandma and Grandpa

Articles tagged with sean on Aggie Codrust:

2019-11-27: Source of Anger
2019-10-30: Outside Bathroom
2019-10-03: Standing in the Way of Control
2019-09-20: Seattle at last

Articles tagged with sean on Luv Counter XYZ:

2020-12-13: Ummm... Why?
2020-09-18: Da Plans
2020-08-26: Home

Articles tagged with sean on O.R.N.G.:

2019-02-19: Who'll Stop the Rain?
2019-02-14: Fish Sticks
2018-11-10: Interim Sun
2018-10-20: What is O.R.N.G.?
2018-10-13: Where Do We Stop?
2018-09-18: Mr. Lucky's
2018-07-21: Gathering Journal Items
2018-06-30: Basement Punish
2018-06-21: Cookie Crush
2018-06-16: Outraged Southern Grandma
2018-06-15: Best Two Beers
2018-06-09: Red Rope
2018-06-02: Kantors
2018-06-02: Two Layers Down
2018-05-12: Knee Bubble
2018-03-03: Her Smile
2017-11-19: face_words
2017-11-09: dragon_and_rose
2017-07-16: Knight and Maiden
2017-05-28: Interesting
2017-05-24: Luscious
2017-02-22: ignition switch
2016-02-28: three legged goat
2016-02-04: Sean's Dad's Grave
2015-08-06: Boxes of Beads
2015-07-23: Dental Gulag
2015-04-06: Big Ford and Torn Fences
2015-03-19: Sean's Arms
2015-03-18: hand-in-hand
2014-12-19: White Album Letter to Sean
2014-12-17: Back and Forth Emails
2009-10-19: Yay Pick Sweep!
1980-10-31: Musical Chairs
1979-10-13: The Beatles and the Annex